|Our view for date night this week. These sea lions are entertaining to watch. We ate at Clearwater which is located downtown. Great food, good ambiance, and beautiful views.|
I've been in school for one year and in this time I have had to change my expectations of a few things in my life. I have had to create new expectations for myself and my family.
The first change was my ability to keep up with everything in the home. My home has always been a place of pride for me regardless of the size, style, or worth. I say this because while I lived in the travel trailer for one year with my family, this was my home. I cared for it like I would a brick and mortar residence. My home is a place where my family resides. Having an organized and clean home makes me feel ready to tackle the day.
I've had to back off the orderly manner in which I prefer my home to feel and look like. The floors are not as clean, the stove is not spotless, the beds are rarely made, the bathrooms, well, they are always in need of TLC. Don't get me started on the laundry. I don't think I have seen the bottom of a hamper in months.
AND--you know what, it's okay.
I wouldn't trade my experience now because school has changed me. It has allowed me to have a year of new friendships, new ideas, and a new self or being.
The second expectation I have had to change is that of my husband. I kind of expected him to walk into my role with ease and to fill those shoes I have worn for 28 years. I expected dinner to be made after a long day of being in class. I thought the laundry would be kept up. I, in my expectations, expected him to be me, only in a male form.
Oh, how wrong I was.
He has been a rock star. He is doing a fabulous job and working and keeping our home in check. Is it how I would do it? NO, but he is doing it his way and for that I am grateful.
Another expectation, is that of myself. Looking back 28 years ago I never expected my life to be what it is today: being in school, living at the beach, four kids, and a wonderful man by my side. This has taught me that I might have expectations of the future but that I should be open to change, challenges, and new circumstances.
Finally, I expected school to be hard and challenging. It is on some days but for the better part, it is not. I thought I would be behind in class. I have not been behind, if anything, going to school has allowed me to shine with my organizational skills. School has brought out the best in me--and I am so happy that I chose this path a year ago.
What do I expect of the future?
Who knows. Honestly, I don't want to know. I want it to be exciting and filled with choices that are fresh, authentic, and fulfilling.
I have hopes, dreams, goals, ambitions, and desires. Those will not supersede the path of my family's adventures in the future. I am constantly reworking my school status to accommodate those of my family. This is perfectly fine with me. I'm fortunate that I get to do both at this stage in my life.
My new expectations are to not have many. To live each day NOW with an open mind, open heart, and a playful soul.
This week I made our favorite vegan tomato soup. The recipe can be found HERE.