Releasing the negative and moving forward.
Stop shoving things under the carpet. Like I did this morning. The flakes of cereal that I didn't feel like sweeping at that very moment I lifted the rug and swept them under the carpet for no one to see. I was wrong. I should have gotten up right then and retrieved the broom to take care of my mess. Instead I pushed the small pieces under my huge living room carpet with the intention of dealing with it at a later date.
The problem is that no one sees the crumbs; even I can't see them, but I know they are there. The knowing is worse than the actual deed of getting the broom and sweeping it up. It is a constant reminder to my subconscious mind that I was putting off something that I could have easily fixed by grabbing the broom and dust pan.
What if a later date never comes and we have all of these crumbs of our lives shoved under the carpet of life? This is not what I am striving to do each day. I need to focus on being the best me. I want to be crumb free. There in lies the challenge. Trying to be crumb free each and every day.
These little life lessons that I am becoming aware of daily in my life are so rewarding. When I first began writing I focused on my past. Those stories the shaped me as a person, a mother and a wife. I thought all of my writing time would be spent dealing and sifting through my past. I am learning and discovering it has nothing to do with my past but more about my present. My now. Today.
I can only control this very moment. I make choices that define me and my family with each waking breathe that I take. Wasting any time on the "crumbs" of our past leaves us empty and deflated.
I am seeing life differently because I am looking for it. I am not hiding it under a carpet with the intention of finding time at a later moment to clean it up, explore it, move it, shape it, or discover it.
When I release the need to "put off todays crumbs until tomorrow", I enjoy life more. Release yourself from the what ifs, the what fors, the wonderment of a better day, a brighter future, a future plan.
Be mindful of everything around you.
Stay connected. Live.
The crumbs of our lives have a way of holding us back. It took me a long time to realize this. Sometimes I still struggle to remind myself that this simple idea is key to a happier way of living.
I sweep my floor about four times a day. I am always amazed at what I find in the dustpan and how much crap I sweep up every day. I hate carpet. I don't like to use that word very often but I do dislike carpet with a passion. Carpet hides so much shit: dirt and crumbs. Have you ever taken carpet out of a home and were surprised that underneath the carpet was a whole village living and functioning on its own. Scary huh?
I am reminded of the movie, Horton Hears a Who, and how they had this complex life living on a dust speck. What if that is us? We have this complex life and we live on this dust speck and yet we choose to see things on a larger scale when in reality we are small. Very small beings trying to do the best we can with what we have. Eating our bread and leaving a trail of crumbs behind us.
Should we leave a trail or should we clean up our messes? This is one of those questions of our lives that leave me scratching my head. To clean or not to clean is not the question here. To live presently or to live in the past is. Spend your days channeling the present. Stay connected to the now. Find a way to let go of the excess baggage that your ego feels defines who you are. These past crumbs do not make you who you are NOW. They led you down a path but you are still walking the steps that are guiding your body during this lifetime.
Crumbs are messy. They deserve to be attended to and not swept under the rug. Our lives and families deserve our very best at every second of the day. There are times when those crumbs will hold us back or keep us distracted but they shouldn't define us or take away from those that we love.
Start lifting the rug and sweeping out the crumbs. Release yourself from the weight of mistakes, failed attempts, mangled relationships, judgement or anything that you deem a crumb in your life.
Just let it go.
You deserve to be your best.