Holding hands with Cory we set out for our daily walk. We have a route that takes us 1 hour to walk. At the half way mark we sit on a bench and rest. We sit and watch the water. The water has a temperament of its own: we never know what we will find. Is the tide out or is it in? The waves are loud as they crash onto the shore. Our view is often clear for miles and sometimes filled with the occasional passing cruise ship or cargo carrier. No matter what we find when we arrive it is good enough for us. We will take the beach, the water, the sand--just as it is.
Honesty in any relationship can become a challenge when the other person is not open to hearing the truth. I know that in the past, I created a facade of what I thought Cory wanted me to be. I felt that who I was inside, down deep inside, was not good enough for his vision of us together. I spent many of our first years together trying to conform to what others thought, what the world would project and how I believed I should be. The reality is that I was already good enough I just needed to let my light flow with clarity, honesty and love. I had to love myself first before anyone could love me as I am.
Peeling away the layers and years of life to discover that down deep we all start off as good people with good intentions is something I know for sure. Our lives carve out a certain flow to who we will become. The first 20 years of my life were hard. The past 26 years of my life have been a blessing. Cory has always been my number one fan expressing that I was good enough for him. I didn't have to change or be someone else. Over the years I wondered if maybe I had not sent him the same message. On this walk, I felt so strongly that I needed to confirm to him that change was not necessary on his part. He was good enough.
I recently heard a quote and loved it. The quote is, "You're a star. Stars are meant to twinkle". My family is my universe. I see each one as a star and I hope they understand that who they are will always be good enough for me. One of my greatest joys in this life is watching them move or twinkle and grow. Seeing them learn new things brings joy to my soul.
Life is about learning and growing. I forgot that for a few minutes as we set out on our afternoon walk. Cory reminded me that learning is not always about healing. It can be more than that. Maybe this was not about Cory but more about me reminding myself that I was good enough. Something he never doubted in me from the beginning.
You're good enough too. Sometimes we need to tell ourselves this and, at times, we need to uplift and remind our husbands, kids and families they are also good enough.
I hope they never forget, that in my eyes they will always be.....
......and so are YOU.....