It has been almost a year since I had Finnley and in that time I have been slowly losing weight. I hit a plateau a few months ago. The dreaded last 10 pounds that decided to take up residence in my mid-section and a bit lower on my two thighs. I guess the extra weight became comfortable with its new surroundings.
My old clothes were a bit snug but I was able to pour myself into them and feel okay about it. I was happy that I did not have to go and buy new clothes for what I was hoping was a temporary size.
I wasn't worried or fretting over the weight because I have had this happen before and I knew with a bit of patience I would find the will to work through the 10 pounds. The weight wasn't the issue but how I felt was becoming more and more problematic. I just was not feeling good. AGAIN!
"Here we go again. Damn you body, why must you always be in a state of disarray and feeling like crap?" I have spent the last fives year refining our diet. Cutting out the junk. Reintroducing the good foods. Becoming more and more active. Enjoying the great outdoors. Working on getting enough sleep. Over and over again, revisiting my health plan. What am I missing? I felt something was wrong.
I decided that I would go and see my doctor one last time and try to get to the end of this feeling, this constant stream of not being up to par. Believe me when I say, that you learn to live this way. On some level I have had to accept that my body has auto-immune issues and they will be there no matter what I do or how hard I wish it away, it sleeps and waits and then rises when you least expect it.
On good days I am full of energy. I play hard. I know what it is like to have a bad day or even a bad week and month. I play with my kids, I cook up a storm, I laugh--I live life to the fullest. Imagine my state of sadness when I awake in the morning feeling the simmering storm start to show its ugly face with a few symptoms. NO NO NO not again!
To make a long story short, I went to my doctor had a bunch of test run and the diagnosis was, on top of Celiac and Rosacea, GERD. Great, one more thing to deal with and one more set of triggers to live with. After my one-woman pity party I kicked myself in the butt and challenged myself to buck up. I can do this.
Ultimately I recommitted myself to eating cleaner, healthier, and with the focus of healing my gut and working on keeping those foods that cause triggers off my menu. I have switched to a diet that excludes most grains. I don't want to say all grains because I will continue to eat rice every once in a while. I hate to label my diet as Paleo, Caveman or Primal but that is ultimately what I am doing. I don't process grains and raw vegetables. My doctor suggested I steam or cook most of my vegetables for a while.
It has made a huge difference for me. I have lost a considerable amount of weight. My energy level has returned with results that have allowed me to have consecutive days of "feeling great". My mood is lifted because I am now able to manage the triggers of my auto-immune disease. I avoid those things that cause me to feel ill.
I am not advocating this way of eating for everyone. I am merely sharing my story. I have several friends that have also had great success with eating a diet filled with healthy fats, proteins, fewer carbs and less sugar. I strongly encourage you to talk to your doctor and do your own research before changing how you eat too drastically. For me this has been easy because I have been living an elimination diet for some time. I only needed to refine a few more ingredients.
The list of what I don't eat is too long to list. I don't want to focus on what I can't have but rather focus on the foods that I can enjoy and eat. My blogs focus has changed over the years and I imagine it will continue to do so as my life continues to change. This journey is far from over.
I choose to eat in this order: Paleo first, vegetarian second and then gluten free. I still have a few gluten free treats (these are not considered paleo)--every once in a while--because I believe moderation in all things is healthy. I don't want to live a deprived lifestyle and food is important to me but my health is the most important and so I will continue to make a choice based on what I believe is right for my body. Listen to your bodies.
With my new weight loss I am in need of some new clothes. Maybe I am having a mid life crisis but I feel frumpy. My style is dated. I need a stylist! LOL
My husband and I went on our first date in almost a year that we did not have a time limit set upon us. I finally felt like I could leave Finnley with her siblings for a time period of longer than 2 hours. It was a glorious date! Seriously, I felt so rejuvenated and reconnected to Cory that I almost didn't want to go home...almost. I miss the kids but recognize that our time together is important.
Our date found us sitting by the dock downtown in Annapolis watching people. We were looking at young and old couples. Skinny and heavier couples. We were paying attention to their style. We saw people from all walks of life with a great sense of style. They were fashionable despite their age, size or place in life. We were inspired to make some changes in our own closet. I feel as though it has been a while since we have decided to work together on a project. Our family takes most of our time and we have drifted apart a little bit.
It kind of sounds funny that at 46 and 47 we are seeking to find a clothing style that is fresh, new and fun. We got up from our walk and started sharing with each other how we could renew our wardrobes. We actually went into a few clothing stores.
I ventured into a store that I normally would not have thought to visit but I wanted to see what the "in" people were wearing and what was fashionable today and not in 1986. I think I have missed a few years...LOL I find a shirt that I love. It is flowing, has beautiful color, kind of bohemian and gypsy like....a beautiful piece of clothing. Cory loves it too and says to me, "you should buy it".
Well, I would have loved to have walked out of that store with that shirt. But not for $186.00. Here is the problem I face with fashion. I am not willing to spend that kind of money on a shirt. I just can't do it. I can't and I won't. This frustrates Cory. He says I should buy it. He tells me we make plenty of money for me to afford this shirt. I hear him but my frugal brain cannot compute the message.
My challenge then is to find clothing that I feel is current and with a sense of style that makes me feel less frumpy but that does not cost a small fortune. I will continue to visit my little second hand shops and consignment stores. I have been finding inspiration on Pinterest for what I think is my style. I signed up for StitchFix and once a month I will receive some stylish updates to my wardrobe from a stylist that works with my body perimeters.
Bottom line--I won't be buying any $186 dollar shirts but I hope to stay healthy, active and to find a style that works with what I am willing to spend on a few clothing items to update my wardrobe.
Share with me how you keep your style up to date and where you find the best bargains for the price.