Thursday, July 11, 2013
Have you missed me? I have missed you. My life seems to be moving without much time to breathe or slow down. Summer schedules have taken over my life with running two teenagers to work and back and chauffeuring Isabella to her many camps, classes and play dates.
Making a baby is tiring, exhausting to be exact. I know it sounds like an excuse to nap all day but I am sure feeling (kicking and all) the process this time around.
My taste buds are all off. I am still cooking and trying to stay active in the kitchen but I will be the first to admit that we have eaten out way too often over the last few months. I have spent time remaking the recipes on the blog to "test" them one more time. My family has enjoyed revisiting some of their favorite meals without wondering what "new" cooking experience they will encounter at the dinner table each night. LOL
When I sit in front of my keyboard I don't know what to write--baby brain, I guess. I have felt a waves of emotion, thoughts and ideas over the last 6 months but, to be honest, they have been challenging thoughts.
Thoughts that have brought me down at times, made me question a few things, had me in tears other times and down right depressing. I don't like to write about these things but maybe I should---who knows.
I was recently told that I like my life to be "fairy gardens" and " cat pictures". This was in response to me unfriending someone on Facebook. I was accused of not wanting to have adult conversations. I laughed. This person did not know me and her statements were purely her opinions based on my personal Facebook updates. In part she is right--I do like my life to be filled with things that make me smile, cheer others up and share a positive message. My childhood was rough--it sucked to be quite honest. I became who I am because of those challenges and have chosen to become someone better because of it and not let those things define me. I don't want to be bitter, upset, a victim or focus on negative things. I choose to see life with a smile, peace in my heart and with an abundance of joy towards other. I spent most of my youth worrying about the opinions of others and letting fear be my beacon. I have not lived this way for a very long time and don't intend to go back to that lifestyle--EVER. For this reason, I have found myself in a place of not wanting to write my true feelings in blog post and updates. I have waited for the time when I felt good and my thoughts were not percolating with random ideas. Sometimes we need the time to refocus and regenerate ourselves to a higher place. These past few months were necessary for me to slow down and regroup. I find that if I listen to the small inner voice and accept the council it pays off in the end--I did and I feel good.
I am starting my 7th month of pregnancy and still have only bought a handful of items. I am not sure if this is normal or not with your fourth child.
My Mom is shocked and might even be a bit worried for her latest grandchild. I honestly don't feel the rush like I did when I was 28 with my first baby to have the nursery complete. Finnley (her name) will be our fourth child and I am pretty sure I know how to do this. The first few months she will eat, sleep and dirty a diaper or two.
Her needs will be simple and I want to keep things simple for myself too. I don't want to over spend on all of the things that we will use for a month or two and then have to store. Our home is small and I am trying to be very particular about the items I bring into our house, after all, they will be a part of the furnishings for a while.
Our goal of living on the road in two years is still in the planning stages. We have already done this once and I know that many of the things we purchase now will be sold later at a huge estate sale. I am shopping consignment stores and yard sales. Doing it this way takes more time because it has to be safe, the right price and in good shape. I like looking for the perfect deal. We will be buying two things brand new though: a car seat and crib (and no I have not bought either of them yet--LOL)
If it sounds like I am rambling, it is probably because I am. I have a lot to say but don't want to bore you with all of the details so I will get to the recipe of these soft and chocolaty cookies.
I make these for my family when we need a quick "cocoa" fix. They are cake-like and make the perfect dunking cookie. Oh yeah--it helps that you check if you have milk before you make them. LOL My kids were so mad the last time because our milk bottles were empty. How can you eat cookies without an ice cold glass of milk?
An emergency store run was made and the troops were once again happy. I hope you enjoy this snippet into my life over the last few months and I will try to be better about keeping the blog up to date with recipes and updates on family, travel and Finnley.
Recipe: Gluten Free Chocolate Cookies
Makes 24-30 cookies depending on cookie scoop used.
1/2 cup almond meal (purchased at Traders Joe or make yourself)
1/4 cup tapioca starch (can also be called flour)
1/4 cup super fine white rice flour (purchased at Asian market)
3/4 cup cocoa powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup white sugar
7 tablespoons butter, soft
1 large egg
2 teaspoons coffee grounds ( I use the grounds from one of my Keurig cups)
1/4 cup milk
Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Line a cookie sheet with parchment paper.
In a small bowl combine all of the dry ingredients and whisk to blend.
In a medium bowl add butter and sugar, beat until butter is light yellow in color. Add coffee grounds, egg and milk. Combine well.
Add dry ingredients to wet ingredients and mix well.
Using a cookie scoop, space cookies 2 inches apart on prepared cookie sheet. Bake 7-9 minutes.
Transfer to a cooking wire rack. Serve while still warm or store in a sealed container for later.