Yesterday will be a day that my family won't soon forget. Our day started out fresh, early and filled with anticipation. It was the first day of high school for Drake and the first day of college for my daughter in two of her classes...they are both freshmen. I was impressed at how each of them appeared to be cool, calm and very together, as they headed out on this day to what would prove to be very memorable and a little bit "shaky" or "rattled" or a "moving" experience.
OH DID I HAVE PLANS too! I made a list of the things I wanted to do, in fact I even took pictures. I thought this will make the best post tomorrow because I can be creative, thoughtful and have a little time to myself and share my deep and inner thoughts...WELL, we know how that turned out...LOL
|I updated our calendar for the next few months.|
|I gathered all of my pencils and sharpened them. In the summer , I can never find a sharpened pencil..finally they were all together. LOL|
|I wanted to quilt...well, this did not happen. I am working on a Halloween block exchange with my friends Carol and Ashley. This block I named Frankenstein.|
|I sorted recipes and filed all my paperwork. YAY for me.|
|I got to spend the whole day with the cute princess! And oh what a day it was...LOL|
Oh I had thoughts and I had to dig deep to not completely implode with fear. Silly right? I wanted yesterday to be special for the kids so I made peanut butter cups and had planned on Beef and Peppers...two things we all love. I thought this day is going to be perfect.
My daughter the day before had asked for Fried Pickles and around 1:30 I decided that I would surprise her and make a batch to have ready. She would be home in an hour and these would be awaiting her return, with the Wicked Awesome Sauce of course...LOL
Cory was working in the basement, Isabella was playing a game on my computer and I was busily cooking...we were all settled. Working and playing to our hearts content. Looking back, it's hard to remember everything that was going on at once. They say time stops and things move slowly when fear, adrenaline and chaos take over...and I guess it did.
I felt the very subtle beginnings of a sifting. Like when you are gently sifting powdered sugar. It's slow, easy and with a light touch. I stop. I think. You question. Maybe it is....and then in that moment you realize that it's not stopping.
I ran to the basement door, yelled for Cory to get out of the basement that we were having an earthquake. I froze. Then time started moving so slow. I yelled (maybe screamed) for Isabella to run to Mommy..faster...faster...our house was rocking, groaning and the floor was like walking on ice. FEAR!
We ran from the house as fast as we could...not thinking that oil was boiling on my stove, not knowing what was to come and worried. Two of my kids were gone, at school and no way to reach them.
I immediately tried calling my Mom and my daughter ( Drake would not have a phone in HS) , I was shaking, crying, FEAR had set in. When it stopped I ran and posted on my page...I thought someone needs to know what just happened. FB worked...my phone did not. All lines were down. At that moment I got a message from my Mom saying she had just seen the news. I could get messages but not call out. You feel trapped when you cannot reach someone.
We love to skype back and forth and this was our only form of communication for a while on this day. When I heard there voice, I lost it. I can't explain it...I just could not stop crying and shaking. Isabella would not leave my side. She was worried the house was going to "dance" again. The mind of a 4 year old is amazing. I am feeling fear and anxiety. I see and hear disaster and through her eyes, she sees dancing. I love that. What would I give to be a child again....such innocence.
It took a minute for me to gather my wits. We talked with the grandparents and things calmed down. We met our son walking home from school. Cory went and got Rye from the college. In the end we were all safe and together.
I have to say we ate those peanut butter cups and passed on dinner. Our stomachs were too upset to eat a tasty and delicious meal...LOL That night we gathered our family and talked. We each had a different tale to tell.
Drake was in the cafeteria with about 600 freshman. He said that everyone thought the initial shaking was from a group of kids running down the stairs, then it HIT and the teachers realized what was going on. Drake said he remembers the floor being like running with your socks on cardboard. It was hard to walk. They had large bleachers and other items stacked very high and as they ran out, everything was swaying. The kids all made it out...but the freshman class will never forget their first day. He said that seeing the cafeteria today will be weird because it won't be moving.
Rye was on the third floor of the Fine Arts building sitting in a chair with rollers. She said they all stopped, it got quiet as everyone tried to process what was happening and then the rolling of tables and chairs started. She actually was not afraid and the kids were all able to exit the school with very little problems. Her biggest worry was us. We could not communicate and so she imagined the worse. She knew I would be cooking and was afraid that maybe I had gotten hurt in the kitchen or her Dad in the basement. Fortunately she was able to get our text finally and we arrived at the school. Our 10 minute drive took 45, traffic was terrible as everyone was trying to get kids.
A moment, an unexpected event in time. A memory we will carry with us forever. The emotion, the reliving it, the coming together. As I sat in my living room last night with my family, I was grateful and realized that this day is perfect. We are together and we are safe!
Recipe: Peanut Butter Cups
The filling will make enough for about 20-24 cups. This depends on what size of cup you get and how full you make the center in each one.
1 bag of milk chocolate chips
1 cup of crackers, broken into small pieces (not smashed) You can use Saltines or Ritz.
1 cup of peanut butter, smooth
1 cup of powdered sugar
1 tsp. of vanilla
Mini cupcake or candy wrappers
I used a Pyrex 2 cup glass measuring holder to melt the chocolate chips in the microwave. This is a slow process because you do not want to ruin the chocolate. I started with 1 cup of chips and in increments of 35 seconds (4X's) I heated and stirred the chocolate. The melted chocolate will help the others to melt when you stir in between each heating. If you have a double boiler and prefer to warm and melt your chocolate this way, please do so. I don't own one of those.
I put my crackers (GF Glutino Table Crackers) into a plastic back and broke them into small pieces. You want pieces and not crumbs. The crunch adds a lot to the filling.
In a bowl combine the peanut butter, powdered sugar, vanilla and broken crackers. Mix well.
I lined up my cups on a cookie sheet and filled the bottom of each cup with a little bit of melted chocolate. I made these a few weeks ago and added too much chocolate on the top and bottom and we did not like this. We like a little bit of chocolate with our peanut butter. I put the cups in the fridge for a few minutes, about 5, to get firm.
On top of the chocolate, add your peanut butter filling. I used my hands and shaped the filling to fit on top of the chocolate. I would say that the filling was about a 1/2 inch, here or there.
I had some leftover filling and this is what I did with it. I rolled them into balls and dusted them with powdered sugar. OH MY! Next time I will make enough of the filling to make more of these babies. They were so good. ENJOY!